Why did I do Alpha?

Even though I had previously attended an Alpha course in another town, I was still very nervous and anxious about what to expect at St John’s.

If I was honest, I would tell you that I was really not sure about it for the first three weeks. It felt a little uncomfortable. Maybe I was slightly intimidated by the knowledge of the seasoned, but kindly, Christians among us, or maybe I was just afraid of what I was about to discover and embark upon. In the face of all of this, I decided I would not give up just yet.

Whatever my fears were at the time, they would soon disappear with the warmth, understanding and trust of my group. Not just the leaders but the whole team. I not only discovered more about Christianity, but also how important my role as a Christian was in making a difference.

Before I went on the Alpha course, my belief was very shallow and I did not realise the significance of what it means to truly have a relationship with God, and what meaning that can bring to your life. All I knew was to pray when things got a bit tough.

The most important and life-changing part of these ten weeks, which has put everything into perspective, is my experience with the Holy Spirit on this last Easter Monday. Something so profound, I am still trying to digest it all and what has happened to me.

I can honestly say the Alpha course is one of the most important and memorable things I have done to date. How dramatic that may sound, I do not know. What I do know is I have discovered in myself a knowledge about God that I never felt was possible, and a hope that fills my days with complete appreciation – even through the most stressful times.

Alpha has been a real springboard into something I did not know was possible. I am very grateful to be on this wonderful journey that is more exciting and intriguing with every day that passes.

Ann Dorrell – May 2008